Friday, 4 August 2017

Stand on your own hidayah

Hi readers,

It's almost time that I need to moved out from the hospital. I love hospital environment more than admin/management works.(except that we need to do on-call on weekends and weekdays).I do admit that my competency in managing ward cases was quite low than amirah & vickram.There might be some cases that I could handle. Most of them need critical thinking and I was too lazy to think about it pronto. As we need to decide fast and help doctors with all the calculation, doses, drug interaction, if the patient have other underlying factors and much more!

Talking about being posted out, I am so excited but afraid of the consequences. I might not be able to do hospital works...ever..again.Might be stuck at store, handling tender and deal with supplier. I am not afraid to be independent again. Being far away from family. I am used to it,as I live in boarding school , plus 6 years stay in Egypt had give me a lot of experience to solve my own conflict . I call mom once per 3 month, sometimes she's busy with house chores , so I ended up having routine skype with yun. It helps yun. You my no 1 listener at that moments.

I actually can do it again. I am still young, right?

Cooking is my therapy. Still am. I enjoy giving peoples foods rather than shopping. You don't have the guilt when you give peoples good foods. But you feel at fault if you finish all the salary for all those stupids bags, shoes, or shawls that you believe you won't wear it often. haha.

so,guys...being independent... I am not sure at this moments.

One day, if I got married. I need to stand on my own. I need to take care of my husband and feed my children.

I can't be kids. I am a grown up lady. 

posting out?

 I am ready!

Saturday, 22 July 2017

Sword bearer

Never did this again in a far away states. I did it in perlis. Nun kodiang sana!

It was the most tiring road trip.. if I am the one who's driving.hahaha. We start to drives at 4 am and stop only to pray. I think by the time it was 9am , i felt asleep and the drivers had changes. As soon as we arrives, I bump into my skuad first.. Oh this man all are getting married finally. Blessed them.

It was quite a good start for me, arrives on time, change cloth to no 1 . Practice for 10 minutes.. And tradada..the ceremony.

Some pictures for memories...:)

Wednesday, 5 July 2017

Hari raya 2017

2017 had become a new chapter for our family. To celebrate raya without my only second brother. Of course I have my third, fourth and little one. But yun had play a big roles of my journey as we come back together and always be there during college lifes. The weekdays skype routines. time flies.

Umi already prepared us 3 sets of baju raya for 3 days raya in rows. All plans must be follow accordingly. So she plans on yellow ( i hate yellow), purple and green. Umi do I need to sync with the whole family? Lets just don't overdue this celebrations. My boyfriends is on duty these raya seasons. Like that make sense for her. Baju raya already done from the first week of raya.

So here is my raya pictures , yellow, purple , and green.